So about last night…

As mentioned, I had told my ex-fiance that I would pick him up from the airport at 7. Since I didn’t have anything planned for the evening, I didn’t see why not. About an hour later I got a text from the guy I’ve been seeing to see if I wanted to come over that evening since we kept missing each other and hadn’t seen each other in a while. I agreed to come over at 9.

My ex’s flight was on time but they had them sitting on the runway for a while so I didn’t get him until 7:30. Then it took about an hour for us to get into the city and I should have just left then but instead I helped him in with his bags. By the time he got settled it was 9 and I was getting a text message from the new guy asking if I was on my way.

The only reason I hadn’t left yet was because I was unsure where I was going. When we had made plans earlier he said I could meet him in Brooklyn around 9, I should have just assumed he meant his apartment, but I wasn’t sure. So I asked where he wanted me to meet him and he asked if I had eaten yet. When I told him I hadn’t eaten he suggested to just come to the apartment.

I felt so bad for being late since I didn’t get up getting there till 9:45. But when I got off the elevator on his floor he wasn’t waiting for me at the door like he usually does. So I walk in to find him in the kitchen…cooking. I didn’t know what to make of the whole situation. On one hand I was a little sad because I assumed that we would be going out to get some food and finally have dinner together, but instead I find him making me dinner which is so incredibly sexy that I forgot I wanted to go out in the first place.

He cooked and we talked, then we ate dinner while watching the Giants game. Afterward we started making out and quickly made it to the bedroom. He told me that he had missed hanging out with me and that I needed to come over more often. No argument here. :)

As I’ve mentioned before, the sex is good, but I know it could be so much better. I can tell he likes to be in control since he is always on top, but I’ve been trying to figure out a way to change things up. I’ve really been wanting to get on top but I’m not sure how to make that happen.

Usually I’m pretty aggressive in bed but for some reason when I’m with him I just let him do what he wants. I don’t know if its because we are not dating, or I haven’t been in a relationship where I was sexually myself in so long, or what…but I can’t seem to take control.

Once again he was sad that I couldn’t stay over. He said “But who am I going to cuddle with? The sex is great but I’m really in it for the cuddling”. He is incredibly adorable when he says things like that but I knew I couldn’t stay.

All together it was a good evening. I’m just stuck trying to figure out how I can inject more of my sexual personality into our sex life.